Just had a moment

I don't expect a single sole to understand what I am going through every single day, No you don't have the same thing nor do you know anyone that has had or has the same thing, this affects everyone differently. What I have is not the Flu or any other virus that will go away with aspirin or an antibiotic this has changed my life and how I live it.I do the best I can as I can to fight this awful disease that they call Cancer.
No pity parties !
There is one person( Debbi ) who is the one that can probably understand what I go through he most, she has been by my side through every single stinking day and aspect of this disease since the day I was diagnosed, she had shed enough tears for everyone and still does. Debbi, I Love you so much, thank you, I know thank you doesnt even begin to fill the box.
Mom and JoAnn also has seen me at some pretty ugly moments, I Love you guys.
Everyday brings more adventures and hurdles< I don't know how I will feel from one Minute to the next....I am fighting the fight with everything I have in me.

I'm not sure what is worse, the Cancer , the side effects or the side effects from the medications. Its so funny, other than a little discomfort from eat ting I was fine until I was diagnosed. Ya know we hear about the people that are doing okay until the doctors get a hold of them and then they die. The side effects from the Chemo and the drugs to counteract the side effects to counteract the side effects and so on are killing me more than the Cancer I think. I have sores in places that I didn't think were possible and body aches and pains that are driving me crazy not to mention the fatigue and loss of sleep, can you have fatigue and not sleep? Well I do...sorry just a thought.