I HATE CANCER

Its almost 11:30 Pm and I cant sleep ! I have pain in my belly and I have this indescribaable feeling in my legs that make them tremble and ache which I am sure are side effects from the Chemo and I think the Shingles are comming back. I HATE CANCER ! ! I have had enough, I am not sure how much more I can endure, Im trying sports fans, but its so hard.