Its just a little after 2:00AM and I have been brought out of a dead sleep because of pain to my chest area.Im talking a 20 on a scale of 1-10. For the first time since this has begun have I felt that my team of doctors from the University of Maryland has let me down.They promised me that they will do whatever nessasary to keep me comfortable and they have not. I have been in pain for over 3 weeks and they tell me to take Motrin, well honestly with the pain that I am having, Motrin doesnt do a fucking thing. Today I go for my second Chemo Infusion, unless the doctors PROMISE to medicate me for pain, I WILL NOT DO THE CHEMO IN FUSION !!!!!!
There is no way that I can endure Chemo, Chemo discomfort and the pain I am having all together.If my doctors will not medicate me for pain I will go into the streets of downtown Frederick to find and purchase drugs that will find me comfort.
Enough is enough, I just can not tollerate the pain anymore.