Well I haven't been keeping up with my Blog with everyday events because honestly I didn't think much has been happening. But as I layed in bed this morning I though wow, there really is a lot.

I have sort of become a recluse just due to my looks, I know I look terrible, I see myself in the mirror everyday, but I'm working on getting out more. Debbi mentioned yesterday " Well get your body to grow back into your head and feet " which is true, I have a big head and big feet but I tiny small frail body.

Ive been playing with my medications some just to see what gives me what side effects. The Adivan which they prescribed to me while I was in the hospital last week is the kicker. It really does help me sleep and it takes the Nausea away to where its almost nonexistent, but if I take it to late before bedtime Ill sleep until noon.

While in the hospital they ordered a Cat Scan so they could rule out Pneumonia which came out negative for that. What it did show was my Mass and Lymph nodes. Apparently my tumor has grown and my Esophagus walls have enlarged which really has made it tough for me to eat, but early indications show that my nodes have shrunk which is great. I asked Dr.Horiba if she was concerned and without hesitation she told me "no not at all, my body is still very inflamed and swollen."

My appetite is slowly coming back to which I want to eat but due to the extreme throat pain I have from Radiation it makes it very difficult to do so, but I am still trying all the time.

Im still fatigued but this also is expected and Im waiting very impatiently for that to disipate.

Last night I craved a Root Beer Waterice from Rita's and at 0654 this morning I still am, Im going to drive over later and get a large.

Ill update this as i think of anything else.